Saturday, January 26, 2013

Death and Angels


While providing religious support on a Forward operating base on February 11, 2012 at approx 11:26 We were engaged by the Taliban.  I heard a loud explosion from the impact of an incoming recoilless round into the Mosque, I grabbed my IOTV and ACH and with SGT Jones and headed for the Forward Surgical Treatment , as we left our building the second round landed impacting in the blimp yard and the explosion was heard, closer this time.  At this time the call for direct attack on the base defense was called over the speakers. As we ran to the FST, we ducked in behind a truck when the third round impacted 30 meters to the right of us by the  DFAC, (dining facility) spraying rocks and shrapnel into the side of the buildings, the FST and cars. We stepped out behind the truck and stared in a bit of shock at where it impacted in the midst of the coalition partners next to us, assessing that we were not injured we moved toward the ramp. Some of the uninjured Afghan fluor workers scooped up one of the injured partners  in a makeshift jacket litter and began carrying him towards us, we directed them into the Surgery room door,  blood from the femoral artery left a blood trail about 2 feet wide up the ramp to the FST.  Other walking wounded and non ambulatory began to make their way and be carried into the FST.

Unable to assess where the recoilless rounds were coming from, Sgt Jones did not return fire, but posted herself as security at the FST door, while I went into the FST and assisted in the trauma room for the next three hours with the 7 casualties, sadly, as I held onto the leg of the first patient attempting to provide comfort and aid, died about 15 minutes after arriving in the FST from severe facial, neck, and femoral trauma.

Over the next several hours I helped in the ER, prayed for staff, and wounded alike, helped in whatever way I could…the blood from the first patient covered the floor and all of the equipment from his femoral artery bleed.  I counseled, prayed and assisted with the rest of the injured. As I helped mop up the blood and change out the bed for the next patient, I kept leaving bloody footprints all over, it was surreal how much, and how bright red it all was, it truly looked like a slaughter house floor.

Another patient with severe head trauma begin to vomit what looked like raw hamburger all over the place and needed to be tilted to keep from choking, I prayed for him as well and did what I could to help comfort and support him and the staff.

The third patient, an American contractor, who had taken shrapnel to his leg and knee, was the next patient I spent time praying and helping comfort and support.  I stayed with this patient until his bleeding stopped, and broken leg was splinted, I helped place on the helicopter to Jaff.

I then went from room to room praying for the less injured, and talking and trying to encourage the patients as well as the staff.

After seeing all of this and being personally involved, I chose to stay rather than leave to ensure proper diffusing/trauma event processing of all involved Soldiers and Civilians alike.

Sgt Jones and I were supposed to fly out that afternoon, but after seeing the shock of the victims and care givers alike, we stayed to facilitate a critical incident stress debriefing with the FST staff, counseled the co workers of the FST casualties, and counseled the civilians of the blimp…who were narrowly missed. 

Three rounds from a recoilless rifle struck FOB …one into the MOSQUE,  one into the dirt by the Blimp, and one into the gravel, just off the main street, by the DFAC, PRT FST building.

Over the next 36 hours I counseled 21 Soldiers, provided a CISD for 17 of the FST staff, visited the civilians of Fluor praying, and counseling them as well, then I visited the civilians in charge of the sky security blimp….

After returning to my home FOB , I contacted Combat Stress and asked them to please make a trip to up north to support our Soldiers, Sailors, Airman and Civilians.  They advised they would try to go this week. 

Sgt Jones who is my assistant and body guard and I were awarded the military Combat Action Badge for engaging and being engaged by the enemy in close combat.  Through our year deployment we experienced “taking fire” more times than we could count and yet each time God brought us through physically unscathed. 

Life at War


I was in combat throughout my entire time here.  We are in Eastern Afghanistan on the Pakistani border,  it is well described as the deadliest place in Afghanistan.  Our Brigade lost 32 Soldiers in our year here…I lost two good friends. 

Did I make a difference…did I help Soldiers….?  My time as a pastor at Elk Creek, and a EMS Captain at McCall both prepared me to see and do what I have done….to physically save lives, which I have done…to emotionally be a force multiplier by helping “Joes” process the hell that they have seen… facilitated multiple Critical Incident Stress debriefings  and I was privileged as a Chaplain to bring a sense of the Holy to the Horror and to visibly demonstrate the love of God to Soldiers…the creed is Soldiers to God and God to Soldiers…providing for their free exercise of religion to those who desire it and a ear of compassion and guidance to all. 

Personally it has been one of the most trying things I have ever done, I have seen things, I thought I would never see….I have experienced the darkest heart of humanity in a country that the enemy’s tactics include brainwashing 10 year old children to be suicide bombers….even blowing up icecream trucks while children and coalition forces are there….

But I have also seen the best of humanity…my friend SSG Nigel Kelly, and SGT William Gross who gave their  last full measure of devotion to God and country willingly laid down their lives in order to bring hope to this country and a brighter future….I have wept with my men, I have laughed, through it all the 23rd Psalm has brought me comfort,  Yeah tho I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil….I have walked in my year here, many times through the valley of death.  I have grown, I appreciate things more, my children, my life, good friends, freedom, and my faith.

I was awarded the Bronze Star for Meritorious service, something that Chaplains seldom receive for my actions in a combat zone under the most extreme situations and circumstances before Thanksgiving last year. 

I was able to be with my family right before Thanksgiving, the first time we were all together in three years, Tyson and Ralene, who are youth pastors in Florida, Cody who is in England in the AirForce and then myself.  We all got together and celebrated all of the Holidays and birthdays and stuff for the last two years by going to Disney World and staying in the Military resort there called Shades of Green.

 

Reflections

Has it really been over a year since my last blog....As I reflect this morning, so many things have happened....good.....bad.....ugly.......and yet God is still good all the time, even if all the times arent good. 

I came across this letter I wrote to the chief of chaplains accessions board over two years ago.  I really had no idea the chain of events this letter would put in place....as Bilbo says, dangerous business stepping outside ones door, you never know just where the road will take you....



Why I Want to Be a Chaplain I feel God has called me into full time service as an active duty chaplain in the United States Army. I have been in professional ministry for 24 years, first as a family pastor then the last 12 years as the senior pastor of a church of 200 that I founded. Ministerially speaking, I am well qualified, performing over 200 weddings, over 100 funerals, counseling couples for marriage, pre-marriage and divorce counseling numbering in the 100s. I started and pastored Elk Creek Church in McCall, Idaho where I preached three services every Sunday for 11 years. I oversaw a budget of 450,000 dollars a year, overseeing a staff of 5 full time pastors as well as oversight of all programs, boards, and ministries. Educationally, I hold a Masters in Theology, a Masters of Divinity and will finish my third Masters in Counseling this May 2011. Physically I am in incredible shape just finishing my first triathlon this last year. I am a runner, avid outdoorsman and mountain climber, having just summited the tallest peak in Idaho last summer, Mt Borah 12, 800ft. I passed the APFT in Florida in October with a score of 324. Other Certifications include: I am a certified ILS medic in the state of Idaho with 11 years experience as an EMS Captain in charge of the weekend crew. I am certified to teach EMT-I and EMT-B courses. I have extensive training in incident command, triage, crisis management, and critical incident stress debriefings, trained in the Mitchell Model. I have been a hospital chaplain as well as the fire department medical chaplain for 11 years. I spearheaded a multi-faith suicide awareness and prevention program in our community. I am currently serving with the 478th BN Airborne and will be attending Jump school in April after CHBOLC. I am easily approachable and have an extroverted personality that people immediately open up to. I play guitar, lead worship and sing. I will be a great active duty chaplain! Troy S. Bates 03 FEB 2011

Well two years ago I was accepted on Active Duty and it has been a whirlwind tour......Key West Florida- 478th, South Carolina, CHBOLC, 25th ID Hawaii, 3BDE 3BSTB -Forward Deployed Jalabad Afghanistan, Baghram AFB, Kuwait, Manas Krygstan, Leipzig Germany, Alaska, Ft Benning Georgia, (where I broke my back on my second training, jump, proceeded to jump my third training jump, and then had to stop after the third jump to allow my body to heal,)  I will be going back in a couple of months to finish my last two jumps....and then Colorado Springs, where I am currently serving in 10th Special Forces Group 3rd Battalion. 

I feel I am ready to share again some of my journey....so if you still read....bless you...if not....it is my safe voice....

Blessings

Sunday, January 29, 2012

A Year in Afghanistan


A little over a year ago, I reported to CHBOLC for my chaplain basic officer leadership course. 3 and half months later after graduating, I boarded a plane for HI as an active duty chaplain to inprocess to my first duty station. 9 days later I boarded another plane in support of Operation Enduring Freedom. I was going to war....now 10 months later as I finish up this year of deployment I can honestly say I am a different man than the one who reported to Ft Jackson.

I am different because of so many new friends who invested in me, Jason Bird, a chaplain who is currently deployed here as well in Kandahar, Ch Kline, who was tough on our class, and yet, saw something in me to challenge me a little further, to push me a little harder...to plant a desire for true ministry to Joes, and not get wrapped around the axle of all the Army rules and regulations. Our squad in 1 platoon will forever have a special place in my mind, our ability to keep ourselves entertained during death by powerpoint is worthy of an army commendation medal for sure. Bird, Berry, Clayson, Amato, Daniels and Bates...I know SFC Ramirez and the School house will never be the same.

Each moment of rubbing shoulders with such people made me a little better than I was, a little better than I ever was going to be. And now over here, I have seen the worst of the worst..in humanity, in horror...I have looked into the black bag of death and come away forever changed....appreciative of the time that is granted...understanding we are but a electrical spark away from eternity and our own zipper of closure. All of these things have given me a tremendous desire to enjoy each moment, to see the story behind the person, the things that make so many so neurotic at times has taken on a new ability of comprehension, compassion, and empathy.

Mostly, this last year, I have grown in my own relationship with my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Alive, well, walking this planet in the form of so many servants. I have learned though I have lost all, as long as I have Him, I am wealthy beyond comparison. I have gained new insight into Psalms 23 as I roll down the IED infested roads of this country with my Soldiers remembering that even though we roll through the valley, we have no reason to fear. I think everyone should have to live as if today was the day they would meet their maker....it is terribly clarifying of what is and what is important.

I have so appreciated who my children have become, the extension of the personalities I saw so many years ago now fully developed, fully engaged, fully enjoyed.

All these things have transpired this year....and while my posting is latter than the first, (welcome to being deployed) I wanted to take a moment and share, lest I someday, somehow forget....

One day,

One day I wrote an email...it forever changed my thinking....
One day I took a plane ride... that forever changed my heart....
One day I invested in gold...that forever changed my finances....
One day I forgave all... that brought freedom to my future....
One day I will ask a question... that will be my forever answer....

Monday, December 5, 2011

Disney, Deserts, Dreams, and Delights!


Wow, how times flies when you are at War!

I must confess though for 29 days I was on leave in the States having the time of my life:

I spent 10 glorious days reuniting with Ty and Ray, and Benji! We did Disney World, stayed at Shades of Green Resort at Disney World, a military resort for Soldiers and their families...we blasted through 3 out of the 4 parks with Tyson boldly leading the way! It was fun to just go along for the ride with my now very adult children....

It is amazing to me...while it was 3 years ago Christmas that we were all together...it seems in their development much longer....oh my...as I watched I saw Pastor Tyson...minister, organize..oh my how well he is organized...(I wish i had more of that gene) and love on people...his church loves him and Ray.

I got to see Ray teach a class of students, and to revel in the transformation I have been privileged to witness in her own life from the camo kicking tom boy..to the beautiful and Godly gracious woman I saw teach jr high kids about the certainty of God! Talk about a blessing!

And then there is my youngest..the last time i saw him was 2 years ago in Biloxi at Keesler...still stuck between manhood and teen....but when I saw him this trip...there is no doubt in anyone's mind of the amazing man he has become! Oh my goodness..the same sweet kind spirit that has always touched my heart...but a new found confidence and drive...that I find myself so admiring in him!

My children are grown, their lives are full and glorious..God has answered the prayers of this Father...in many ways for me it was a passing of the torch, from each one of them insisting that they pay for our meal at different times, to the leadership displayed in certain arenas of life....I found myself silently slipping back to the back seat...and just enjoying this new position of friend and mentor rather than Father, provider..needed...it was a bitter sweet moment for sure..and yet so necessary, natural and healthy!

WOW talk about proud.

The latter part of my leave was spent in Palm Springs with my good friend Michelle. We toured the country side (thanks to my navigator patience, who seems to get me lost more than I do), we hiked Andreas Canyon and sat beside the pools of the oasis there in the middle of the desert..and laughed and talked and envisioned a new future...such a great time.

I now know what a village idiot is....and it is my favorite....although perhaps the guy singing on the guitar wasn't as appreciative of me joining in a stirring rendition of Brown Eyed Girl...lol oh well, it was my vacation!

A late night swim, more sunshine soaked up and a chance to catch up on my sleep and my own imagination....fireside talks, and dreams....

In 3.5 months Lord willing I will get to return to the island and after 2 years of my life being on hold, searching, waiting, praying..it is time to begin living it again with the things the Lord has in store for me..

Army News:

I love my mission here, I love ministering to Joes..I am told I am good at it, I am just glad that my past life has given me some tools that allow me to relate to their stories....I think too many of us believers have lost touch with "real people" and their real problems...

Perhaps all of us would do well to follow Jesus model and wander around touching, teaching, seeing the needs, trying to meet the needs, before standing in our houses, often times out of touch, telling people the answer without having ever lived or understood the question...of course the answer is Jesus...I get that...but to touch a leper while healing them is so much better than just saying be healed....just my thoughts...

To those of you who follow...the journey to authenticity, is a lot like the story of the Velveteen Rabbit...does it hurt, he asked....yes.....but in the end you will be real...

And after all...isn't that what we all long for?

In His Grace

Just Troy

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Candles in the Desert

Good morning my fine friends!

Alas, Forty Five years is far too short a time to live among such excellent and admirable people. "I don't know half of you half as well as I should like, and I like less than half of you half as well as you deserve".

Over the last week, many of you have written on my Face Book wall recounting memories that have long since faded from my view...ahh so good to reflect....ahh so hard at times to remember and to have said goodbye to so many friends...such purpose and meaning...

Birthdays are a mixed bag...I think.......you need them to stay alive, but each one checks off mercilessly the time allotted to each soul....Oh Lord teach us to count our days in order to make our days count....seems a little trite as I reflect over the last 4 plus decades of walking this world....

It is odd, that today all of these memories, bring me sadness..and to be honest, none were sad memories...so as I muse out loud...I am not sure why....

Thank you to all of you....it certainly will be a Birthday I will never forget, another year older as I blow out candles in the desert

JT

Sunday, October 9, 2011

More Like Falling in Love


Greetings fellow traveler!

I just spent the last week hoping from FOB to FOB via "Huey Express"
So many thoughts tonight as I close out another week in theater...I have held 7 services in the last 4 days, on three different FOBs, each one grateful and hungry for worship, prayers, fellowship and the presence of the Holy in the midst of the Horrors of war....as I reflect on this ministry..so many things come to mind...there is a song by Jason Gray I think, that I would sing for you, but because I havent figured out how to attach videos yet, I will just share the words that describe my sense of the Holy today...

Give me rules
I will break them
Give me lines
I will cross them
I need more than a truth to believe
I need a truth that lives, moves, and breathes
To sweep me off my feet
It ought to be

More like falling in love
Than something to believe in
More like losing my heart
Than giving my allegiance
Caught up, called out
Come take a look at me now
It's like I'm falling, oh
It's like I'm falling in love

Give me words
I'll misuse them
Obligations
I'll misplace them
'Cause all religion ever made of me
Was just a sinner with a stone tied to my feet
It never set me free
It's gotta be

More like falling in love
Than something to believe in
More like losing my heart
Than giving my allegiance
Caught up, called out
Come take a look at me now
It's like I'm falling, oh
It's like I'm falling in love

...It's like I'm falling in love, love, love
Deeper and deeper
It was love that made
Me a believer
In more than a name, a faith, a creed
Falling in love with Jesus brought the change in me

Most services, messages and opportunities to
minister would do well to answer the heart
cry behind this song, when they attempt to speak
on behalf of God..

We all would be better for it....

The one thing Jesus said was greater than anything else:

LOVE!

The Love of God to man, "nothing can separate us from the Love of God"
the love of man to man, "by your love one towards another"
the love of man to God "Love the Lord your God with all your heart...."

So in the spirit that this is written

I love you all

T